Saturday, December 31, 2016

Dressing it up for the new year!


Getting my pieces ready to hang in Bradford VT's Local Buzz, the best coffeeshop around. They will be up for the month of January.

This one's looking mighty fine with it's new mat and frame. Success!

Saturday, November 26, 2016

Currently At a Full Stop


I am spending this Saturday trying to get back into creating, which is not an easy task for me. I decided to attempt it first with a copy of one of my earlier favorites. 

Personal artwork for me has a history of being very hard going, for several reasons. 
I don't have an undying urge to create paintings, actually a blank canvas can be pretty intimidating. I was raised to be pretty crafty, which is why I enjoy making pretty things, but that doesn't necessarily equate to the "artist mindset" (whatever that is). 
I spent years in my past with a prolific man that does have that undying urge, which was intimidating to me. It left me with this feeling that I should give art up because of my lack of attachment to it, the lack of the undying urge which he had. It was a comfortable place to be, around another creative all the time. It allowed me to have time and space when I felt creative too, and having him around always made for good conversation. But I did notice that as the years went by, I began finding ways to fill up my time and avoid making art. I don't know where the fear came from, or what the fear was rooted in, but my avoidance skills became so great that now I have quite the task to change my behavior. 

As I get older, I have a better vantage point to see where my mental booby traps are. I'm finding that this art thing is a big one. It's wrapped up in a lot of different aspects of my life. ...I know now that I don't want to pull this negative mess along with me anymore, it's too emotionally taxing. My current stance on the way to do this is to try to create on a regular basis, and talk positively of my personal successes. Do art that is unrelated to anyone else's shadow, and find personal validation in myself, not from others. This is something that will take years to work on, I know this. Working on things is not historically a strong suit of mine, but it is an important part of the person I want to become. 




Thursday, November 24, 2016

Ceramics!

Here are three bowls I made with my niece at our local Clay Community Center. I am proud of these, looks like my nazi ceramics teacher in college knew what he was doing!









   


Monday, November 14, 2016

Saturday, November 12, 2016

Calmness


Feeling good at the start of today. Happy to have made it through another week, happy to have some time for me. Happy to be going through old baggage, throwing some stuff out out to make way for more useful things.

I will be cleaning out my dead mother's closet and purse today, with the help of my father's girlfriend. These things have been collecting dust for over two years, and I am so happy to be a part of clearing it out. My mother is in my heart: there is no longer any need to store her blouses and socks in a closet.

My father tells me that a person's going to feel however it is they're going to feel, that this is ok, their feelings are valid and those feelings don't have to answer to anybody else. I've spent time time in my life struggling to communicate my feelings, believing my feelings are less important, or matter less than other people's intentions, feelings or needs. It's left me at times angry and hopeless.

I know now that this past attitude of mine is wrong. I am working hard at being less afraid, and more open to letting go of hurtful things. It's a tough skill, which involves excellent communication skills (I'm not there yet!) but it's a worthy goal. And I am happy to have made it here.

Friday, November 11, 2016


I sat down today and got my art supplies out for the first time in two weeks, and it was great. I'm between classes in grad school, and actually have the time to play with my paints with no ultimate goals in mind. I've always had a hard time coming up with ideas, and gravitate toward faces. Ultimately this lady showed up.


Life hasn't been easy lately. I have spent the past year working at a school for behaviorally challenged teenagers, and it is one of the hardest things I've ever done. One of the major reasons why I go back every day is because it's helping me to understand how to talk out my own problems, find my triggers, recognize when the behaviors of others have nothing to do with me, and how to work past my issues. I have very little time for myself between this job and graduate school, which can leave a person feeling less than whole sometimes.
Recently I've struggled through several of my triggers being hit upon by people I care about in my life. I'm getting closer to understanding why their actions (or lack of actions) are triggers for my emotional upset, and am proud of this slow progress. There are still many things to work on; communication, listening, understanding... but I will take this small positive step as success.

I've heard that when you're going through a rough emotional time, that's when you should be making art. Use art as a way to let feelings out, release some junk rolling around in your brain, etc. 

So I decided to make some monsters. 
And I think that this was a good idea. 


Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Getting It Down On Paper

I am having a hard time figuring out how to get my feelings expressed through my artwork. After contemplating for a few hours, I made this. I think it's pretty successful.

The Feels are in the Wrong Places

Thursday, August 25, 2016

Doodle

Today's brain, before talking through my problems like a big girl.


Nope.


Sunday, August 7, 2016

Good use of a Sunday

Newwww encaustic!

Brainstorm

Lineup for encaustics work. This is where I put the brushes to cool off, you can see the wet wax on the hotplate above the brushes, which were used to make the piece.



Saturday, August 6, 2016

Visual Lexicon

Every artist has their own "vocabulary," or image lexicon that they use to communicate with. This one is mine.


Tuesday, August 2, 2016

New Painting!!

This painting began as a larger version of a past painting I made (see here). I started it about a year ago. Unfinished, it traveled through the last move up north, and has been waiting to find itself. What it ended up becoming is a dedication to some years of depression, indecisiveness and bad habits. Here's hoping that with it complete, I can become more complete as well.

Dedicated to my Mom.

Lasting Behavioral Changes Take Two to Three Years

Saturday, July 23, 2016

Ceramics! ...for beginners

I began going to a local clay studio with my niece a few weeks ago. We began going for a few reasons:

  1. to hang out with my cool niece
  2. to go stick my hands in some clay and get dirty
  3. to support a local business
  4. to get back into a medium I used to know and love

So here we are, at the Clay Center, and the first project we did is slab plates. The lady running the place showed us how to imprint textures and we came back after a few weeks to glaze the pieces. Here's mine!

This was the first one, for both creating the clay and making the glaze. Glaze ended up being way too thick, but I'd totally stamp the alphabet all over something again.



Two little woodgrain plates. The dripping came out alright, but might be better on a cylinder or bowl.


Then I made this thing because I was waiting for my niece to finish up. It was supposed to be a wall vase, we'll see where it ends up.

So we went back to pick these up, and spent our time throwing on the wheel. I made three bowls and am VERY excited that my nazi ceramics teacher in college taught me well; throwing was a success. Hopefully we'll glaze them next week, and then pictures to follow.

Sunday, July 10, 2016

Heavy

This is my first encaustic piece in three years! I was finally able to take the wax out of the storage tubs now that I have a garage to set up in. Feeling pretty good about it.

Heavy - 2016

Friday, July 8, 2016

Doodle 7.8.16


Doodle for today. Feeling good. Letting my hair do it's natural curly thing, must be on my mind.

Sunday, May 15, 2016

Professor Feedback

It's always nice to get a push in the right direction, or a small compliment to hold onto.

"Elizabeth, I really enjoyed your journal and the art work was great! You thoughts are often truths that we would all like to say! As you move forward please keep your sense of humor. In reflections of the gifts you will offer; I believe your students will always come first. Which means great success in our World!


When I write my book on the education system I will be calling you for support with the drawings."


Thank you, Esther :) I needed a small kindness today.

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Saturday, February 27, 2016

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Zen

It's weird to get such meaningful words after an all-you-can-eat buffet. Looking to live less fearfully when I grow up.


Sunday, February 14, 2016

In Progress


Working on this painting. Not sure where to go with it next...

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Student Depression Infographic for grad school!

My attempt at a poster sized infographic for grad school!

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Friday, January 15, 2016